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Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Pinterest, Fibromyalgia, and a Question

   So... I have been looking at Fibromyalgia related pins on Pinterest today. Pinterest is something I use once in a blue moon and I had no idea there was stuff about Fibromyalgia on there.

   I often find my self wondering if I was misdiagnosed and I have a different autoimmune disorder. But I don't think like that as much as I used to. When I was first diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and then Fibromyalgia, I think I was in a stage of denial because I kept searching for other possible answers.

    In the beginning, I think I also felt very alone and sometimes I still feel like that, but reading other people's blogs about Fibromyalgia and their experiences has helped so much. While reading through others' blogs and posts, I'm constantly saying, "Yes! I feel that way too!" It makes me feel not alone and that I can relate to what other people are going through. And to read these things that other people are feeling and struggling with that I can relate to, has helped me accept my diagnosis. Plus, some people can explain what I'm feeling better than I can myself and then I can use that to explain certain things to others.

  It is difficult to explain everything you're feeling- everything that is wrong- let alone remember it all. And when you list everything or say that you can't remember it all, people think you're crazy. My whole life I have heard, "it's all in your head" and "people are way worse off than you." They just don't get it. I once read a quote on some website, "you don't get it unless you get it." And that is the truth. A lot of people don't and wouldn't understand it unless they have it and go through what we go through on a daily basis. And what people also don't realize is how ignorant it is to tell someone that there are people worse off than you. First of all, we're not idiots. Duh there are people in the world who are going through worse but that doesn't mean what we're going through isn't bad or what we go through doesn't matter. Being chronically ill and in chronic pain affects my whole life. I don't want you to feel sorry for me. I want you to believe me and be understanding.

   Quick Question: Does anyone out there with Fibro feel like they are less productive later in the day and in the evening?

  Anyways, enough of my ranting and babbling. Lets get back to what I was first talking about, Pinterest. Besides the pins that describe how I feel physically and emotionally, I like the funny joking ones. Everyone needs a little humor in their life, especially when you feel down and tired all the time. So the humorous ones give me a pick me up and a smile for the day. Here are a few of my favorite pins from today:

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Monday, September 29, 2014

Date Night and Mondays

   Happy Monday- NOT! I mean who actually likes Mondays anyway? "Monday gives you a fresh start to your week!" Not to me, that just means it is the start to the work week and there's still 4 more work days to go. So yea, Mondays aren't really my thing. These two pictures I have in my office pretty much explain my relationship with Monday:

   So anyways...Friday evening I went on a date with a guy I met on Tinder. Lol that sounds kind of funny/ lame. It was our first date and he was such a gentleman. We had dinner and then we sat in the back of his truck in the parking lot and just talked and laughed for an hour or so. It was a great night :) and no, I did not kiss him. Here are the flowers he got me (he couldn't find my favorite- lilies) and my date night outfit:

Top: Delias; Cami/ Tank: Forever21; Skinny Kick Jeans: American Eagle; Sandals: American Eagle


Sunday, September 28, 2014

Meet Gemma (Furrkid #1 of 3)

Gemma in "her" swivel chair in the Living Room

   Meet Gemma Madeline, also known as The Princess. And just so you know, the "G" in her name is pronounced like a "J" like the way you pronounce "gemstone." You will not believe how many people pronounce the "G" with a "Guh" sound. People are freaking weird. Anyway she is a little over 3 1/2 years old, her birthday (estimated birthday) is January 21, 2011, and she is an English Bulldog/ Beagle mix, also known as a Beabull. She is my first rescue dog, first mix breed, and first dog that I didn't get as a puppy. I adopted her when she was 1 1/2 years old. I don't know a whole lot about her past other than she had lived in an apartment with a white furry small breed dog who used to annoy her and was mean to her, her owners got evicted, her owners abused her, and she had been in two different animal shelters. She was also heartworm positive (the shelter's cheap tests didn't pick this up) but we took care of that and she is heartworm free!

   At the time, I had been looking at dogs online at shelters and rescues for months and months and months. I wanted to make sure I got the right dog and I wanted to rescue (I've had dogs my whole life and have always been puppies from breeders). One night, I looked at the clock and saw that it was time for bed but something told me to just look at this one last site again. So I did and then I found her. This gorgeous wrinkly faced underweight beauty. The next morning when I got to work, I immediately filled out the adoption application and emailed it to her adoption counselor along with an extremely long email. Her counselor emailed me back and we set up an appointment for me to meet her that Sunday. That Sunday, I found my angel and she found me. It was fate. They approved me and I took her home the following Saturday (August 4, 2012). At 1 1/2 years old, she weighed just 25 lbs (she weighs between 52 and 56 lbs now and is not overweight) and curled up in my lap somehow on the long drive home (1 1/2- 2 1/2 hour drive).

   Despite her tragic past, she has definitely gotten used to being spoiled and she is definitely a Mommy's Girl. I absolutely adore her! Don't be fooled by her tough girl looks, she loves dressing up. She gets so excited to wear clothes and she will bring them to me and help me put them on her. She is most definitely a people dog, meaning she loves people more than dogs but she gets a long great with her little brother and little sister. She does have a lot of dog anxiety with dogs she doesn't know, dogs who obnoxiously bark, dogs who run at her, and she gets super nervous around small dogs when they are on the ground. I have tried many different products and training methods in an attempt to get rid of her dog anxiety in these situations. It has improved but I think she might just always be like this, however, I will never give up on her!

Gemma wearing her cute tutu dress to work

   Until we moved into my new house this year, Gemma had only lived in apartments (I had apartments before we moved) and had never had a back yard. I'm telling you, having a yard (fenced in of course- 6' tall privacy fence) has enlightened her spirit even more so than the day I first brought her home. Another great thing about my house is that I made the basement into the doggy playroom. The floor has this concrete type paint and they have a couch, t.v., toys, water bowl, toy box, rug, blankets, dog beds, etc. As for the color scheme, I went with white, brown, coral, and a cobalt blue. Although I haven't finished decorating it, here is one of the decals I have on one of the plain white walls:

   This girl is truly my angel. She has been with me through my good days and bad days and has stuck by my side with me being chronically ill and going to all of these different doctors. As I had mentioned in a previous post, I swear she can tell when I need to rest and take it easy and she can tell when I need to get my ass up and move around. She'll snuggle with me when I need to rest and relax and she'll lick my face to wake me up when I've layed down for too long. It is difficult to explain but she just knows. And when my back is really hurting, we'll lay back to back and her back acts as my heating pad.

   I love Gemma more than anything in the world and don't know what I would do without her.


Thursday, September 25, 2014

Treat Yourself Every Now and Then

   So yesterday I took a day off from work. Last week I had left work early three times and the week before I was sicker but pushed through work anyway (not the smartest idea). I just felt like I needed a day off. I snuggled with my three cuddlebugs, watched reality tv, and tried to relax and let my body rest. I also went to the nail salon. My eyebrows really needed to be waxed and I can't even remember the last time I had a pedicure- it has been years! So I treated myself.

   I used to pluck my eyebrows myself but I usually went crazy obsessive with it and it got more difficult to do it on days where my hands and fingers would cramp up and were in pain, days where it was hard to even hold my arm up and hold the tweezers in my hand, and days where I felt like my fingers were being electrocuted or something. So I decided to just have someone wax them from then on. Plus, only paying $5 and the fact that they do a great job helps too lol.

   But today I am back at work. My goal is to make myself stay at work all day today, tomorrow, and all of next week no matter what. Gotta pay the bills and I don't want to use all of my paid time off before winter storms come b/c I definitely can't afford to take off without pay. Just another reason I should be allowed to work from home!

   Anyways, I have still been waking up with migraines but only mild ones. So I take two Excedrin migraine pills before it gets worse. I took two around 4:00/ 4:15 a.m. and still have a mild migraine. And I am definitely feeling some pain and stiffness in my hands, fingers, and lower back today.

   It is raining. I hate rain. It is actually pouring down rain. I just want to go home, snuggle up on the couch with my babies and blankets (they LOVE blankets and snuggling) in my sweats and a hoody and eating Panera Bread's Mac n' Cheese. Yummm...

   Well, I am going to stop complaining now and continue to count down the hours and minutes until the work day is over. It is after 8 a.m. which means 6 hours left!


Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Recent Wedding Trends

   I wanted to discuss a few wedding trends, some recent and some that started a year or so ago.

   One trend that started probably over a year ago: Mix & Match Bridesmaids' Dresses. Sometimes people go as far as having the bridesmaid dresses all different colors and styles. I love the whole mix & match trend but I like it when they use the same color and have all different styles of dresses or all different styles of dresses with the same color but different shades of that color. Lauren Conrad recently got married. She let her bridesmaids each choose from two colors and their dresses were different as well.
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While there are two different colors (nudes and pale pinks), the color palates are somewhat similar and neutralish. With the colors being soft and down to earth and the lengths of the dresses being about the same or almost all the same, they go together quit beautifully. It reminds me of blending different color eye shadows when doing your make-up. I wonder if she would be into being my wedding planner for whenever I get married, if I get married. She is just so put together and everything in her wedding and even her bridal shower was simply amazing.

   Next trend I want to talk about: Wearing a Crop Top and Maxi Skirt instead of a Wedding Dress. If done right, this looks gorgeous. Ashley Simpson exhibited this trend recently at her and Evan Ross' wedding. Ashley nailed this trend! Now I know when people hear the word "crop top" they are going to think of something like Miley Cyrus or think it shows too much. But it doesn't have to be like that. Ashley wore a long sleeved ivory lace crop top with a beautiful matching maxi skirt. This type of maxi skirt is high waisted, so instead of baring your belly, only a smidgen of your midriff is exposed.
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I wish there were more pictures of Ashley Simpson's dress but these will do. I think she just looks stunning and it goes well with her bohemian theme. It is laid back yet romantic. And it is very different from her traditional wedding dress she wore when she married Pete Wentz. Oh how I wish they stayed together, but Ashley made the right decision in leaving him because of his drug abuse. I just wish they could have reconciled when he got clean. But hey, Evan Ross is very good looking too ;)

   And for the final trend: Trashing the Dress. For those of you who do not what this trend is, trashing the dress is basically when you wear your wedding dress and then do something that ultimately ruins the dress, such as diving into the ocean or a pool or something and have a photographer professionally photograph it. 

   The other day, or maybe the other week, I came across this post on
about a bride whose fiance died 52 days before they were supposed to say "I do." Eventually, when she was ready, she trashed the dress. She did so by jumping into a river. For this strong woman, it wasn't about following the trend. For her, trashing the dress symbolized her freeing herself from losing her fiance.

   I'm not completely for "trashing the dress." I mean you spent all this money and it reminds you of the day that was hopefully one of the happiest days of your life. But to each its' own. However, I do think if you get a divorce or never made it down the aisle and had already purchased the dress, then this is a great way to let go of something and as Janine said, "free yourself." 

What are your opinions on these trends?


Tuesday, September 23, 2014

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New Boots

   Sorry I haven't posted in almost a week. Still not feeling well but really, what's new? I feel bad everyday. Yesterday I felt like I had been hit by a truck or a train but I still managed to push through and stay at work all day. I am going to try to do the same today. I'm still also having issues with the pharmacy regarding my ADD meds. So I am going to call my doctor's office today -if I remember to- and ask them to deal with it for me. Because of the stupid pharmacists, I have not had my ADD medicine since July! How ridiculous is that? And it is all the pharmacy's fault because my insurance said they approved me to be on the medicine for another year (they have to renew it each year) back in July. Ugh!

   On a positive note, last week my new boots were delivered! I had been looking for the perfect pair of ankle boots and found them! I absolutely adore them. They are so cute and comfortable and the heel height is perfect. I wanted an ankle boot with a heel but not too high of a heel and the 2.5" heel is just right. They are true to size and only $39.99! You can purchase them here:

Had to add some pictures with each of my dogs photobombing lol :)


Wednesday, September 17, 2014


   I'm going to keep this post short. Ugh I am so fatigued. One of my shirts I have explains how I feel exactly: "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired." I was just getting over being sick last week and now I'm a little sick again. Not as bad as last week but still. So I left work early today and when I got home (after eating lunch), I tried taking a nap and had a crappy nap. I hate these. I just wish I could work from home half the time. Technically I can, but will my boss let me? Probably not. Since I have moved, I have not seen a general physician and although I keep saying I need to find one, I think I really really need to and see if he can help me at all. The majority of my work I do is all on the computer. I don't know, we'll see what happens. 

   And then on top of all of this sick crappy feeling crap, I have been having problems with my pharmacy for the past few months. They keep saying my ADD medicine needs authorization. My doctor's office has sent over the paperwork numerous times and my insurance even said that they renewed and approved it back in July. So I called them this morning and gave them the case number that my doctor's office had received from my insurance. 

Well, I can't write anymore right now. 


Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Kerry Washington Takes a Stand Against Domestic Violence

   I am all about charity and purchasing from places that give a percentage of the proceeds to animal shelters, as well as other organizations and causes. So when I read about this on and went to to learn more, I was immediately interested. 

   Kerry Washington hosted the 2014 Allstate Foundation's Purple Purse Program and was spotted showcasing one of her purple purses she designed herself specifically for domestic violence awareness. I have gained a new respect for her. I think domestic violence awareness is so important. It takes a lot to realize you are a victim of domestic violence and to get out of it. I used to be one of those women who said that if I ever got involved in a violent abusive relationship, I would leave right away and I couldn't understand why women didn't realize they were in these types of relationships and why they wouldn't leave. It wasn't until I became a victim of domestic violence and after I finally got out of the relationship that I understood, 

   I was involved in an abusive relationship where I was blinded by love. I was so inlove and felt like I couldn't live without him that I dismissed the abuse. I blamed it on his drug abuse and also thought it was my fault for doing things and saying things that got him angry. And on top of that, he was lying to me, cheating on me, using me, and stealing from me. Although I had my suspicions, I didn't find out the truth until after I had left him. 

   One day it got really bad. The previous night it finally had seemed like our relationship was finally taking a big turn for the better. He went over to his friend's house and didn't come home until like 2:00 p.m. the next day. We shared my car- well it was basically his car because he always had it and controlled everything. I missed my shift at work and couldn't get a hold of him. He didn't even act like he was really sorry when he finally made it home, which really upset me. Then he took my phone and read the text messages I had sent to a friend of mine venting. He turned into Mr. Hyde to the extreme throwing glass & iron end tables at my head, destroying the kitchen, and throwing the dining table into the wall. He was yelling at me and saying he was going to kill me (wasn't the first time he almost killed me) and when I tried to get out of the apartment, he flipped me over the recliner and pinned me down to the ground. I had bruises all over my body. He cocked his arm back with his hand balled up in a fist ready to punch me but didn't. Then he went to the kitchen and got a knife and said he was going to kill himself because of me. I begged him not to, screaming and crying, and then he locked me in our bedroom. He also broke my phone and when he called my Mom telling her it was over and that he wouldn't let her talk to me, I screamed into the phone, "Mommy he is going to kill meeeee!!!" Then he broke his phone. My Sister, who heard my screaming through the phone had called the police. When they answered the door, he acted like the screaming was from us having sex. The officers didn't by it. They separated us and I tried to act like I was ok. I even distracted myself by saying I had to look for our kittens and make sure they hadn't ran into the hallway outside the door. The officer didn't believe me and tried to talk some sense into me but I wouldn't press charges, I don't know why. I guess it was because I loved him and he loved me. We were engaged to be married and I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. My Mom showed up and tried to take me with her but I wouldn't go and he wouldn't let me go. Over the next few days, my Mom finally convinced me to leave him. She said that if I didn't leave him, she was cutting me off completely and would never help me with anything no matter what ever again. I couldn't risk that. 

   I wouldn't be where I am and who I am today without my Mother. She is an incredibly strong woman. I still think about my ex and still believe I love him but I remind myself that I am only thinking of the good times at the moment. Then the bad memories come into my head and I snap back to reality. He has still tried to contact me after all of these years and I have responded sometimes. But I won't anymore because I am so much better and deserve so much better. I refuse to risk everything I have now for him. 

To those of you who are victims of domestic violence, reach out. Tell someone. Even if you are unsure if you are a victim, talk to someone. You are so much better and deserve so much better. You are strong, you can get out.

To those of you who have been victims of domestic violence, you are so incredibly strong and I am so proud of you. You should take pride in standing up for yourselves. 

Domestic Violence Awareness month is next month.

Stay Strong.


If I Stay and The Giver.

   So this past weekend, my sister and I took our puppies to get spayed and we saw two movies. My sister's puppy, Eleanor, is mainly Pug with a little tiny bit of Beagle but she looks like a purebred black Pug. Audrey is a purebred English Bulldog. They are the same age but Audrey is one day younger. Eleanor takes all that medical stuff like a champ but my poor Audrey was in some pain. Luckily the medication they sent home has worked for her pain. She has been extra affectionate and cuddly and I have been letting her sleep in my bed with her big sister and brother.

Now onto the movies. We saw If I Stay and The Giver. Keep in mind, I didn't read either of these books. If I Stay was a lot better than I thought it was going to be. BEWARE, it is definitely a tear jerker! My sister isn't very emotional and she cried in the movie theatre and of course me being the emotional one, I was bawling my eyes out. Chloe Mortez did a phenomenal job in this movie. I mean she nailed it on portraying the character's emotions. If you don't mind the crying, I recommend seeing it.

The Giver. I wasn't interested in seeing this movie really. Most people have read the book in school but I did not. So I was a little apprehensive going into this movie without reading the book first. I just kind of thought that this was one of those movies where you have to read the book first but I was wrong. It was the next movie playing and our puppies weren't ready to be released to go home, so we had some time to kill and we had already went to Petsmart and Petco and spent lots of money on all of our dogs. Anyways, I thought this was going to be a boring movie but I actually really enjoyed it. And it was a nice change from being an emotional wreck like I was earlier from watching If I Stay. Oh and Taylor Swift makes an appearance in a small role. You really should go see both movies.

Well that's all for now.


Friday, September 12, 2014

It's Friday, Friday...and a Petco promo code!

Hello everyone!

It's Friday!!! Now it just needs to be the end of the day.

   I want to get started off with something I heard on the radio this morning. Every morning on my long commute to work, I listen to The Kane Show on z104.3- LOVE them. They were talking about fighting with your significant others. One female caller said she had gotten in a fight with her boyfriend over his comic conventions he spends a lot of time at (she doesn't enjoy going to them) and it was going on 8 weeks of her giving him the silence treatment. 8 weeks?!?! I'm sorry but regardless of how mad I was at my significant other (single at the moment), I could not hold out the silent treatment for 8 weeks. Now if he did something horrible like cheating or something and I was giving him the silent treatment, by 8 weeks I would have just broken up with him. She said he spends around 6 hours at a time at these conventions and she goes with him even though she hates it and just wants some more time for them to spend together- NOT at the comic conventions. I completely understand where she is coming from but honey, 8 weeks? Really? And you think you're still together??? Yea I don't think so. I can't see a man staying around for 8 weeks of the silent treatment and not assuming you guys are done or isn't going to end up venturing off to other females. Some of you might say, well maybe he really loves her. If he really loves her that much, he would have been doing everything he could to get her to talk to him and then they would have been talking by now. News flash, he obviously doesn't get your point and/ or isn't going to change and you're probably not even together anymore.

   Anyways, today I am showing off my new necklace that was delivered last night!. It is by Alex and Ani and you can buy it here There are so many cute pieces of jewelry on this site and each one has special meaning to it. I chose the Khaki Healing Sacred Studs Necklace (in silver) because, as it says in the description on the site, it promotes harmony and healing as well as refreshing energy for emotional balance. You never know, it could actually work. I'm trying to be optimistic here. I just think it is perfect for someone like me who has an anxiety disorder, fibromyalgia, and bipolar disorder. Even if it doesn't work, it is a really cute necklace that can be paired with almost anything. The "closing" part is actually magnetic. So you can adjust the length of the necklace to your preference.

   I also wanted to share with you some of my favorite websites that I have ordered dog products off of. Shopping for dog products (or pet products in general) online works in your favor most of the time. There are products online that aren't offered in stores and you can compare prices before checking out. In addition to some websites having the same products as other sites and stores but for cheaper, sites also offer promo codes and have sales quit often. So you could end up getting your pet products for even cheaper. Remember to set up accounts on these websites as well as signing up for email subscriptions so that you get all of these promo codes and special offers. Some sites like and give you reward dollars after you spend a certain amount of money. Here are some of the other sites I shop online at for dog products, enjoy! (When shopping on Amazon, use so that your order benefits a certain shelter, rescue, or organization of your choice!)

And today at use promo code 5off to get $5 off your purchase of $10 or more!

Well, that's all for now.


Thursday, September 11, 2014

A little Fibro but lets talk Fall Fashion and Miley Cyrus???

***Let's please take a Moment of Silence for all of those whose lives were lost during the tragedy on 9/11 and those who lost their loved ones, friends, and family in the tragedy***

   Ok, so I definitely had a Fibro/ CFS moment yesterday. I was making cheese raviolli and while the water was boiling, I set out my bowl and glass and got my diet iced green tea from the fridge. Well after I had been pouring my tea for a little while, I had realized that I filled up my bowl with tea instead of my glass. I filled up the whole bowl and was even staring at it while I was filling it up. That definitely gave me a little giggle.

   Lets talk Fashion. So over the Summer, I have been doing a lot of shopping- especially lately. I mainly do online shopping. There have been a lot of summer sales recently and lots of promo codes. I've been shopping online at, and a little bit at The online promo code to get 25% off today or 20% off tomorrow at Old Navy is SAVEMORE.

   Lets talk Fall. While there are a lot of good summer sales, a lot of sites have been emailing me promo codes in general to use on all items. So not only is it a good time to take advantage of buying Summer clothes for next year for really cheap, but you can also start getting some new Fall items at a discounted price for your wardrobe as well. When shopping for Fall, think of denim, flannel, cardigans, open shawls, light sweaters, flats, boots, and scarves. Think light, warm and cozy. Sometimes the beginning of Fall weather is still warm. So lightweight pieces are a must. They are great for the days where it is warmer, transitioning weather days, and on days when it is colder, you can layer! I love layering because these types of clothes are so diverse. You can use them with so many different outfits and accessories and in different seasons. Right now I am looking for the right pair of ankle booties with just a little heel. I'm thinking of buying a pair from Target or Old Navy. Ankle boots are a must for Fall.

   My closet is an absolute mess right now. I have a room that is actually a third bedroom that I turned into a closet room for my Sister and I. So right now it is definitely not picture worthy- yet. But when it is all organized and finished, I will most definitely be posting pictures for you all.

   So I was doing my daily morning ritual of skimming through new articles and news on Yahoo! and came across Miley Cyrus' jewelry line debut. I mean it is creative, gotta give her props to that, but maybe it is a little beyond over the top. Like jumped off a cliff over the top. It is very 90's, which I LOVE, since it reminds me of trends from my childhood. Key word here: childhood, as in for children. She should be selling this shit on Etsy lol. Then her line might be successful. Hey at least she wore one of her pieces that had a car air freshener on it in attempt to mask the smell of her weed breath. Not loving her outfit either. Did she get so high before her show that she thought she was going to a circus or maybe entertaining a child's birthday party as a clown? I, personally, would wear a more simple outfit with maybe all solid colors if I was going to wear multiple over the top clutter ball hot mess jewelry. I'm not a big Miley fan but I do commend her for making every piece of jewelry that was showcased herself.

Well, that's all for now.


Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Migraines, Migraines, and More Migraines.

Today's main topic of discussion- or me just complaining... migraines

   Luckily these past few weeks I haven't had a migraine every single day but before that, I was having a migraine every single day for about 3 months straight. I used to take prescribed medication for them but stopped because of course my insurance stopped covering the one that actually worked and because I hate taking all of these pills. So right now I use Excedrin Migraine and it usually works. 

   This morning what did I wake up with? A migraine. I'm not surprised considering I felt very tired when I woke up and according to the Sleep Cycle app on my iPhone, my sleep quality was only 47% last night. I've only had my iPhone for about a month and a half, so I haven't been using this app for that long but I love it. My main problem with sleep is that I don't ever get restful sleep. I have tried going to bed at different times, waking up at different times, sleeping shorter amounts, sleeping longer amounts, sleeping pills, etc. Regardless of the different things I have tried, I don't get restful sleep. Right now, I get into bed around 8:00 p.m., try to read a little, and go to bed at about 9:00 p.m. I get around 6 1/2 hours of sleep or so. I take Melatonin right before I start to read as well. Not sure if it works but I still take it.

   I have definitely noticed that my sleep has shown a tiny bit of improvement since I moved from my apartment to my house. I also got my walls painted serene blue, or maybe the paint color is called serenity, I can't remember- what a surprise! Haha. But I do think that paint color has helped with my sleep as well. I have generalized anxiety disorder, so I think having my room this color puts me in a more calming relaxing environment. 

   If you haven't noticed, I do tend to get a little off topic or one topic leads to another topic and so on. Thanks ADD! I can ramble on and on discussing twenty different topics and never getting to my point or never finishing each topic. I can also be a bit random. So you all will just have to deal with that because that is me. Love me or hate me. 

   On a positive note, my dogs really help me with my health. I love that my dogs are all lazy. They get short random spurts of energy and then they pass out. Gemma, my oldest, helps me the most. She loves to cuddle. Gemma helps me to fall asleep and lets me rest. When she feels that I have been resting for way too long, she will wake me up with kissies- and no, she is not waking me up to play or for me to take her potty. This girl can really hold her bladder and won't go potty in the house no matter what. I will talk in more detail about my babies later on in another post but I swear, Gemma is an angel sent to me. Anyone out there who thinks I'm crazy can think whatever they want because I truly believe that dogs- not every dog- are very helpful in the healing process. 

   So back to my original topic. Come on Heather, focus! By the way, I do tend to talk to myself in my head giving myself little pep talks or just rambling on to myself or attempting to remember things. Anyways, my migraine this morning has subsided thanks to taking two Excedrin migraines almost 4 hours ago. One of the things that really bothers me when I have a migraine is my eyes. They just hurt so bad, Today the pain is mainly located on the tops of my eyeballs but sometimes it gets so bad that it feels like someone is pulling back on the "strings" attached to my eyeballs. That is the only way I can describe it. It's like there is two little evil guys behind my eyeballs pulling on whatever pink connective tissue is back there and trying to pull them deep into my eye sockets into my head. I also feel pressure on them and tension. Whatever it is, I hope the medicine completely scares these evil guys away and gets rid of my migraine for the day. 

Well that's all for now.


Tuesday, September 9, 2014

First Post

   Ok, Hi everyone! I am a new Blogger and will be updating my page over the next few days. I am writing- typing- this post to give you all a little insight about my life.

   Ahhh where to start? My name is Heather Hammel, I am 23 years old, and a dog mom of 3. Hmmm, lets start with the dog part of my blog. I have grown up with dogs my entire life, from Beagles to Labs to Bulldogs to Bullmastiffs. I have experienced a lot of things with my dogs and have gained a lot of knowledge. I want to open up this blog to other dog parents to discuss any issues or concerns they are having with their dogs, those seeking recommendations on anything dog related, and to people out there that want to or are considering becoming a pet parent. 

   Fibromyalgia. I have went to different doctors and specialists seeking answers for my symptoms. Although I have taken a break from looking for the right doctor for right now, I have been diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromyalgia. I was diagnosed almost two years ago but I have been battling these disorders for much longer. The symptoms would come and go and my parents and doctors would tell me that I was fine and it was all in my head. I will note that at the age of 15, I did get mono three times within a year. After that, the symptoms continued getting worse. So two years ago, I finally decided to see a doctor after everything was getting significantly worse. And although I have been diagnosed, a lot of doctors don't have much experience with autoimmune disorders and still kind of look at you like you're crazy. Dealing with CFS and Fibro on a daily basis has become more and more difficult, especially when it comes to work and even household chores. I know there are other people out there who struggle with this or who have overcome this. I am here to share my story and hope to hear yours as well.

   Fashion and celebrity gossip. I LOVE shopping, clothes, makeup, helping people shop, etc. So this part of my blog is to discuss latest trends, places I like to shop, my outfits, etc. For a few friends and family members, I have helped pick out or suggest clothes and colors that will look good on them and help them shop for an outfit for a special occasion. So anyone out there that would like some help, feel free to contact me! I also love reading about celebrity gossip. I know it is not for everyone. Some people think it is stupid and that people who read it have no lives. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, whether it be valid or not. So you'll see some posts about the latest celebrity gossip as well.

   Well that wasn't too difficult. My mind is a little all over the place right now and I'm having some trouble focusing but I just wanted to give anyone viewing this page some insight on what the purpose of this blog is. Can't wait to continue this new journey!

Bye for Now!